What’s a Pharisee? In the strict sense, it was a Jewish leader in the time of Jesus. In a modern sense, it describes someone who claims to be religious, but has lost the real meaning of Jesus’ message.
In John, chapter 5, one of Jesus’ healing miracles is described. Jesus see an invalid and heals him. Before doing so, he asks him, “Do you want to be healed?” This is probably a bigger question for another time, but it’s an important one. What I wanted to point out was the aftermath of this healing. Jesus performed the miracle on the Sabbath (our Sunday) and told the man to “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.” So the man picked up his mat and walked away.
The religious leaders of the time had become so wrapped up in the law that they had deemed ANY work on the Sabbath to be unlawful, including carrying a mat. Because Jesus healed on the Sabbath and then told the man to carry his mat, they were so angry that they decided to kill Jesus. These were the church leaders!
You may have a negative view of God and Jesus because of what you’ve observed in the church. Unfortunately, that is not a new problem. Set those reservations aside and look for God. He will reveal himself to you. I can assure you that not all Christians are Pharisees and not all churches are condemning environments.